We're Number 1!!!!!!

That's right.

We "fucking killed" trivia last night.

We're Number 2.....again!!

I feel so smart being a part of the Sticky Bandits trivia team. If only I had answered one question last night or the night before. Ah well. I'm sure my parents appreciated the collect call home from Myron's last night. Here's our great loving conversation:

Mom - "Hello"
Me - "Hey Mom, Dad home?"
Mom - "Where the hell are you?"
Me - "I'm at a bar doing trivia. Dad home?"
Mom - "He's in the bathroom."
Me - "Shit. I need you to holler a question at him. How many strikes do you need to get in order to bowl a perfect game?"
Mom yells question at Dad...
Muffled Dad voice through the bathroom door - "13"
Mom - "It's 13"
Then I hung up

Thanks Dad. Who would have thought that all of those drunken Sundays bowling would help me out so much? I love you big guy.

We're Number 2!!

That's right folks, the sticky bandits are just one step away from taking it all. Sticky Bandits = the shit.

On another note, Happy Birthday Teri!!!!!

hehehehe. A girlfriend of mine has the nickname "73 more days" for msn. I asked her what that was all about and she says that's how long she's going to wait until she starts talking to guys again. I thought that was really funny. Since November 2, she has decided to wait three months and as of today, she has 73 more days to go. Go Crystal, you can do it!!

As for me, the guys are lined up at the dorm doors. I just can't keep all of them away. It's really hard to budget your time when there's millions of men waiting for you. That's why I haven't really been posting, obviously.

My baby don't mess around because she loves me so and this I know fo shooo..

I can't believe that I went out all three nights this weekend. One was spent sober though!!

I got pretty sick Friday night and that's my reason for being sober last night. Ah well, it's all fun and games. I met up with Alain at Melon's and had a pretty good time. I'm turning Christine into a bar slut and I feel a little bit bad about that. She couldn't understand why Melon's is my favorite bar and kept laughing at me all night long. I fucking love Melon's!!

I think I love it cause the majority of the people I know hate it. I know that's kinda mean but sometimes a gal just has to get away and walk in on someone snorting coke off a toilet seat. I get the biggest kick out of that place.

Anyway, I went to a shit assed pub crawl for a bit on Saturday and then went back to Myron's later on. Tyler and I snuck in the front of the line and then through the door without paying cover. You gotta ask Tyler to see how he showed off his "stamp" to the bouncer to get in. Hilarious.

I wanted to spend some time looking around for someone, but I got distracted by some very deep conversation. Sobriety sucks.

All in all, I had a pretty good time last night. Hooray!

Met a boy cute as can be

I had a great time at the bar last night.

Started off as a Thursday night hockey game that ended up at Myron's. That lead to drinking and fun times with Taylor, Christine, Janelle, Billy for a bit, Caroline, and Melissa. It was so great to dance with the girls again.

I am super duper happy. Thanks to all for putting me in a great mood!

Long Overdue

Test

My name is Amber Geddes and I have a disease. I was diagnosed over a year ago with being depressed.

Depression is a serious mental illness that is very much misunderstood. Luckily, I have done the homework for you because I strongly feel that many people who will stumble upon this site are very much uneducated about this subject.

Although it is the year 2003, it is still surprising to hear some of the many myths about mental illness and depression. Thanks to the Canadian Mental Heal Association, I was able to copy and paste some myths:

• People with mental illness are violent and dangerous - The truth is that, as a group, mentally ill people are no more violent than any other group. In fact, they are far more likely to be the victims of violence than to be violent themselves.
• Mental illness is cause by a personal weakness - A mental illness is not a character flaw. It is an illness, and it has nothing to do with being weak or lacking will-power. Although people with mental illness can play a big part in their own recovery, they did not choose to become ill, and they are not lazy because they cannot just “snap out of it.”
• Mental illness is a single, rare disorder - Mental illness is not a single disease but a broad classification for many disorders. Anxiety, depression, schizophrenia, personality disorders, eating disorders, and organic brain disorders can cause misery, tears and missed opportunities for thousands of Canadians.

I have depression so that is going to be the focus of this post. There is much information available on the Internet about the different mental illnesses and if interested, I suggest www.cmha.ca.

Depression is basically a chemical imbalance in the brain. The two neurotransmitters associated with depression are serotonin and norepinephrine. When one or both of these become irregular, depression is onset. Although the medical explanation seems to be simple, it is very hard finding the right medication to help regulate and restore chemical balance. There are hundreds of different medications which work differently with every person and can explain why it is easier said than done to find help for this problem. Many of the medications have horrible side effects and can cause a person to become very ill at first. Most of the side effects do wear off when the medication finally starts to work for the patient about four to six weeks into treatment, if not, another medication, or a higher or lower dosage has to be tried out.

What causes depression?
There are many factors to consider when trying to find the source of depression. Immediate depression is often caused by a painful event and ineffective coping skills. Immediate depression is usually easier to treat than something more long term. I have been depressed for four years and there are many things to consider for my particular situation. My situation in a nut shell, as discussed with doctors and councillors is due to genetic predisposition (yep this shit is hereditary), abuse, problems within my family, and my poor coping skills. That’s at least what we’ve been able to narrow it down to.

There are ways of telling whether or not somebody has a mental health problem. The symptoms can all be found at CMHA.

My motto is still “I live to give” but I have also found great comfort in “you don’t have to like it, you just have to do it.” I use that one more frequently and it has helped me get the help I need and has allowed me to function. I still have much to work on. This is going to be a hell of a long healing process.

So that’s it. I’m not lazy, not crazy, not violent, nor stupid. I am fully aware that there are people in the world with bigger problems than me and I understand that I have a lot to be thankful for. I did not choose to be depressed. Like the diabetic, I have no control over my disease and I will be on medication for most of my life. Don’t pussy foot around me, I am a normal person for Christ’s sake.

Mental Illness affects 1 in 5 Canadians at some point during their lives. Think twice before you go off and say something stupid, you’re probably next.



feel free to email your questions and comments to ambergeddes@hotmail.com

Wholesomely Uppity

I'm sitting in the Kelley computer lab, cause I've got nothing else to do, and I really love the net. Me = très cool.

A girl just came in a bit ago yapping away on her cell phone. Since then she's tried to dial three different numbers. Unfortunately she's got one of those really really old Motorolla's that are really loud when you dial them and you have to use two hands to hold them cause they're so fucking heavy. Anyway, she won't stop screaming "I can't hear you right now, no, no, I can't hear you!" Fucking annoying. I feel like dragging my feet accross the room and then tapping her on the shoulder to ask a question just so she gets a shock. Heh, I'm so grade six.

Why is it that everytime there's a bird walking by me in close distance that I often say aloud, "I wish I had a rock." I'm beginning to think that I am a very horrible person. Yes, just beginning. It's better that I want to start off by killing only small creatures right now. I'll move up eventually and switch from rocks to like guns or rope or something.

Watch out, I'm depressed and totally serious. Or am I just lazy? Who knows?

Bigones.

I love you baby, but you gotta bounce a little more

54-40 was a good time.
Some people are fucking strange though.

I really don't know what to post.
That guy and girl having sex on the dance floor were really gross and I saw them today at the caf. Almost lost my appetite. sick

Two guys a girl and a pizza place

Ryan Renolds is so hot.

I had a good time at Justin's birthday last night. I would like to thank Mr. Bobby Miligan for his interesting wall story. That rocked my socks.

So, I'm not up to a whole lot today, just job hunting. If you feel sorry for me, please give me a job, or free money. It's all good.

Sorry Christine for falling asleep when you were visiting last night. Woops.

Do you ever feel like kicking yourself in the face?

Ufit 1 - Amber 2

Yep, I did it again. Even though it ended an hour ago and I have already taken a shower, I still can't stop sweating. This is really gross. If this is a sign of something awful, please let me know.

I hurt my shoulder last night in bed somehow and now that I went to Ufit and pretended like I was fit enough to be there, it really fucking hurts. I have to go now cause it's hurting me to type.

R.I.P

I'm a bowl of mashed potatoes

I had to go to the doctor today, which I find is an upsetting experience, so I got upset. I didn't mean to, but when you're as crazy as an old boot, so it goes.

So Mélanie came over and my eyes were red as shit and the best conversation of the day came out of it.

Mél - "Are you alright?"
Amber - "Nope, I've been crying all day"
Mél - "I brought you back a juice from the cafeteria"
Amber - "Mél, it's half gone"

Mél - "No Amber, it's half full dammit. HALF FULL!"

You are burning


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God Dammit, I forgot my glasses again

That's what I say everytime I come to Kelley Lab to use the net. Frig. I wish I could see.

I've developed a new trick that allows me to be more tolerant toward many things. I stay awake in small incraments. I will usually stay up for about an hour or two and then go back to bed for about three or four. It may sound like I'm wasting my life, but I'm having a good time. I've never been so comfy.

Oh man, I hope that you're on msn and talking to me right now cause I have a really cool font.

I love today's weather. It's kinda cold, but just crisp enough to leave your cheeks nice and rosy. I love the fall, as I've posted before. I'd really love to pick apples for a day and then go to someone's house and bake a pie. I don't know if harvest time has past, but if it hasn't and you have an orchard, give me a ring!!

I had a pretty good weekend.

Thursday night rocked my knee socks. I love fake ACDC.

Friday night was fun too. I was going to be a complete stick in the mud and stay home, but I decided just to be half of one and go to Tamsyn's sans costume. Saw a bad movie. Wrong Turn, or as I like to call it, Wrong Rental. I am so funny.

Saturday night was fun times with dildo's followed by fun times at Brent's.

And then this afternoon, me and Janelle headed to the PEI expo where she got recruited into Avon and I only managed to get recruited into the army. Swell.

Cinderella!


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This is very interesting. I thought I was going to get "One flew over the cukoo's nest" only spelled right, or something like that.