"The biggest defeat in every department of life is to forget, especially the things that have done you in, and to die without realizing how far people can go in the way of crumminess. When the grave lies open before us, let's not try to be witty, but on the other hand, let's not forget, but make it our business to record the worst of the human viciousness we've seen without changing one word. When that's done, we can curl up our toes and sink into the pit. That's work enough for a lifetime."

Celine - Journey to the End of the Night



I am feeling very poopy right now.

"well if you don't have a signature move, you can at least have an uncomfortable line"

Thursday




It's been a pretty slow day off today. I didn't make it out for coffee, ah well. I'm in a total emo mood right now.. blah. Oh well, at least a cool assed picture came out of it.

Anyone who's anyone uses the black blogger template...

My house smells like cat pee. This is not a good thing. My cat Sam is very sick... I have to take him to the vet very soon. My other cat Ricky is in heat. This week is off to a bad start cat-wise.

When I changed my template last week, I forgot to copy all of my links. The only ones that I knew off by heart were Taylor's and Jason's so if you're reading this and you feel left out, please comment and leave me your link so I can re-add it.

I'm such a tard when it comes to computer stuff and cat stuff.

I'm running out of ways to run away

self medicating, day dreaming, excusing, procrastinating, reading.....it's all starting to get really boring...

maybe it's time to face reality, but where's the fun in that?

be my distraction



HOLY EMO!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha

Good Times




hahahahahahahahahahaha Samyie

Well

Ran into somebody that I didn't expect to tonight. I'm really happy that I did, kinda made my weekend. I'm pretty sure he was happy to see me too. The unplanned and unexpected is always a nice treat.

In other news, Sam and I went on a random adventure tonight. We managed to hit up Jason's Johnny Cash cover show, Indie pop night for a few seconds, The O2 (walking from the Johnny Cash show to Indie pop), Burger King, and then Cosmo. Good times.

Sweet



I'm getting a record player. It's time for a hobby and thanks to Derek, we've decided on me collecting vinyl. Hope it goes well and that I don't waste my money on stupid shit or become some sort of a record fan-girl.

Words






I didn't call you this weekend, or come out to find you. I'm sorry, but I'm tired of chasing you. Next time, come find me.

What would Freddy Mercury do?

To pass the time by at work we've been playing some pretty dumb games. Some examples include "Name your top 5 everything" or "I'll say a movie quote, you guess the movie".. you get the idea, just stupid shit to pass the time between calls. Well, today my co-worker came up with a new one. He asked "What would you do if the world was coming to an end in four hours from now."

My answer was pretty simple. I'd sit on my bed, eat an insane amount of Wendy's, drink about 50 cokes, and smoke a half pack of cigarettes. I wouldn't call anyone or even talk to anyone. I'd just spend the last four hours of life as we know it, alone, eating a lot, and being ponderous.

A lot of people answering the question said that they would get ahold of all of their friends and family and say their last goodbyes. Well, not this gal. I really can't picture any other way to spend my last few hours.

This is what I would want most out of every imagineable possibility of things to do.

My friend Jason is a bearcat, but I'm okay with that.

Jesus Christ, attempt number two at posting this evening and again...nothing. It's kinda hard though when you have other people in the room. I just can't post when people are watching me (I'm post shy, it's like pee-shy only more embarassing). Well, I might as well get comfortable and just pretend I'm home alone and let 'er rip I guess....

I can't do this... I just can't post with other people in the room...I'll have to set my alarm for like 4:30 or something just to ensure that I can be all alone for posting. Why not, at least then I can download midget porn without anyone looking.

Damn.....until early morning, cyber pals

Hey little girl is your daddy home?

wsassat? sexy that's what that is....

So what's up blog world? I came online once again with the intention to post, but alas, cannot think of anything to write. I've been doing a lot of Karaoke lately, I'm pretty much addicted. I go with my roomates and friends about three times a week. That is so fucking sick, but I love it.

Top 5 Karaoke songs I've done in the past week:
1. Too Drunk to Fuck - dead kennedys, performed by me and my roomie Samyie
2. Fairytale of NY - pogues, performed by me and Derek
3. Chantilly Lace - Big Bopper, performed by me
4. Love Shack - B52's, performed by me and Stephy G
5. Pet Cemetary - Ramones, performed by me and Samyie

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Amber
Birthday:	August 6, 1982
Birthplace:	Moncton, NB
Current Location:	Moncton, NB
Eye Color:	Green
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	5'8
Right Handed or Left Handed:	South Paw motherfucker
Your Heritage:	Albert County....
The Shoes You Wore Today:	not wearing shoes yet
Your Weakness:	kryptonite, and my own immune system, and spelling
Your Fears:	blood, knives, dogs
Your Perfect Pizza:	the works.... i don't care for pizza that much
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	not die
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	hahahahahahahahahahahaha
Thoughts First Waking Up:	geez, i gotta pee!
Your Best Physical Feature:	my whole gangly body
Your Bedtime:	usually 1130
Your Most Missed Memory:	i don't get it
Pepsi or Coke:	i shouldn't have to answer this. if you know me at all, you know what it is
MacDonalds or Burger King:	either or
Single or Group Dates:	group. i love orgies
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	I fucking hate iced tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	if it's ice cream i like vanilla with bananas on it
Cappuccino or Coffee:	coffee
Do you Smoke:	yes
Do you Swear:	yes
Do you Sing:	hell yes
Do you Shower Daily:	nope. no showers on sunday. it's the rule
Have you Been in Love:	yes
Do you want to go to College:	been there....still paying for it
Do you want to get Married:	not until i can legally marry myself
Do you belive in yourself:	i exist, so yes
Do you get Motion Sickness:	yes
Do you think you are Attractive:	damn straight
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	lately
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yes
Do you play an Instrument:	soon to be the juice harp
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	yes
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	fuck no. i hate fish.
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no, it's too damn cold out
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	only hearts
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	yes
Ever Shoplifted:	yes
How do you want to Die:	ALONE
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	the blair witch
What country would you most like to Visit:	i'm fine here
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	don't have one
Favourite Hair Color:	dark
Short or Long Hair:	preferrably short, but it doesn't matter
Height:	taller than me
Weight:	heavier than me
Best Clothing Style:	anything that's not arts fag looking, or halifax chic, if you will
Number of Drugs I have taken:	lots????????????????
Number of CDs I own:	this is stupid
Number of Piercings:	this is stupid as well
Number of Tattoos:	not gonna lie, tattoos can be hot but it's kinda rare to find
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	12
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Bradley Nowell
You are Bradley Nowell! You're funny and inventive, very talented. You write lyrics, poems or other random literature very well. Nobody knew you but that's the way you liked it. Whoever did try and learn was good enough. Oh, he died in 1996 from a heroin over-dose. Very sad.