Hi, I'm Johnny Cash
So this time we at least got to go 7 months without a funeral. Last time it was only five months. Hopefully we'll have a longer span this time.
I'm getting to the point where I'm becoming very jaded toward death. I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing. I still cry which is good, but it just doesn't affect me anymore. I know that there's nothing that I can do except remember the good times and I try very hard to find comfort in that. As far as an afterlife goes, I believe very strongly in a happy, peaceful place where there is no more pain. Everyone gets to meet up and look down upon us.
The part that really disgusts me about death is all the why's and the blame. Why can't we all just accept that sometimes really shitty things just happen.
We don't need to point fingers - it doesn't help at all. Sure we all need closure, but don't make a situation worse for the people involved because you simply can't accept it.
I'm not referring to Billy here, Billy's awesome...and he has a tough road ahead. I can't imagine what it's like to lose a sibling, especially to lose one to suicide, but if I can be a tenth as patient and supportive to him as he has been to me since losing my mother, I think we'll be okay.
And to Dave, if you're out there in space somewhere or right here, I hope you find your way. I hope you can now rest peacefully. I regret that I didn't know anything was wrong, but I hope that now there's no more pain for you. You've really made me feel like family, you've loved my son as if he was your own. I only hope that we can be as good to your children as you have been with Seth. I'll make sure to let them know how much you loved them all, how funny you were, how great you were at jeopardy, and what a big dork you were. I also hope you find my mom, cause that would really make her day. She had a huge crush on you :)
So this time we at least got to go 7 months without a funeral. Last time it was only five months. Hopefully we'll have a longer span this time.
I'm getting to the point where I'm becoming very jaded toward death. I'm not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing. I still cry which is good, but it just doesn't affect me anymore. I know that there's nothing that I can do except remember the good times and I try very hard to find comfort in that. As far as an afterlife goes, I believe very strongly in a happy, peaceful place where there is no more pain. Everyone gets to meet up and look down upon us.
The part that really disgusts me about death is all the why's and the blame. Why can't we all just accept that sometimes really shitty things just happen.
We don't need to point fingers - it doesn't help at all. Sure we all need closure, but don't make a situation worse for the people involved because you simply can't accept it.
I'm not referring to Billy here, Billy's awesome...and he has a tough road ahead. I can't imagine what it's like to lose a sibling, especially to lose one to suicide, but if I can be a tenth as patient and supportive to him as he has been to me since losing my mother, I think we'll be okay.
And to Dave, if you're out there in space somewhere or right here, I hope you find your way. I hope you can now rest peacefully. I regret that I didn't know anything was wrong, but I hope that now there's no more pain for you. You've really made me feel like family, you've loved my son as if he was your own. I only hope that we can be as good to your children as you have been with Seth. I'll make sure to let them know how much you loved them all, how funny you were, how great you were at jeopardy, and what a big dork you were. I also hope you find my mom, cause that would really make her day. She had a huge crush on you :)
